there's nothing that can make me quite happy as the curve of a well-made stiletto. haha.

watching football brings about alot of thoughts about many random people. when i see certain footballers i think of certain girls. when i see certain teams, i think of certain boys. hahaha. i rmb the times where wj & i used to scream over the phone during the arsenal man u matches. haha.
spore overwhelms me with memories sometimes. seeing as how i've lived here my entire life, and went through everything here, its not surprising. but the thing is the mentality i have here and in london. here, everything is approached with utmost caution, making sure every step is correct, never making a mistake. which resulted in me over-thinking, over-analysing, worrying about consequences all the time, and never actually living in the moment. but in london, i finally understood how i'm only in this point in time once in my entire life, never again can i go back. and due to the knowledge that i'll only be in london for a fixed time period, i've taken on the live in the moment attitude. i'm living for myself, for the moment and for the present now. which results in alot of rash impulsive choices. but its been really good so far. i do what i want, when i want. as long as it makes me happy. haha. i'm living a life without regrets, saying what i want, pursuing what i want, when i want. and its really doing me and my soul alot of good. i need to hold on to that while i'm in spore, and keep the momentum going. hahaha.

coming back to spore sometimes makes my time in london feels so surreal and like a dream. hmmms. but i'm really missing london actually. being liable to no one, not having to answer to anyone, eating what i want, doing what i want, anytime i want. hahaha. shit, only a few days back in spore and i'm missing it alr. die.